I got my tests back. I have ADHD inattentive. This is what I have been hiding my whole adult life. That I, have trouble paying attention. I know people in my life that would say I always pay attention and there are those who will say I never have. They are all right.
I find it fascinating that NASA hires forty percent ADD people to fill its ranks because of their innate trouble shooting skills. I was asked if I had a different way to trouble shoot. I have only the way I do it, as I have not yet stepped out of the looking glass I have no other reference. Though I tend not to give up til I have a solution or more research to conduct. But I have realized from this question being posed that others who are working with me were exasperated at how fast I dismissed a possible solution when I saw it not solving the problem. I would be darting down the next path to see if that was the solution while people without this affliction were not yet coming to the same conclusion. I have heard of a research that found (I cannot put my hands on the article at the moment) children from third world countries are better at problem solving than most American children, as these kids are constantly problem solving to live. Not that hiding ADD is near as dire, but trying to fit in and covering up your short comings would make you more attune to following the path of action and possible consequences, therefore a better perception of a solution or not.
I wonder what I have learned by forcing myself to pay greater attention than I wanted to. Of course there were times when I couldn’t, when the mind said no, and times when I could see the flow of conversation or a speech just wander through my mind with out sticking. No longer just a frustrated observer to this affliction but to have a name to call it. It is with great relief, that I am not alone, and now can say that I have ADHD.
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